Data Day 2

WINS:6.5
-Massage table purchased for a great deal! (Let the energy work begin!)
-Body work on third "client" complete
-0.5: after a lot of work, de-escalating my reaction to the bank being closed and my being late (big smell breath in...)

losses: 3.5
-My reaction to arriving 6 minutes late after my reaction to the bank being closed (gah! Profanity (ies)!)
-Spending a loooooong time picking out the perfect frame for a drawing a got in NYC (in September) and returning home to find it was the wrong size (visual-spatial skills need a boost).


Season total: 2-0

Let's get started: Data day 1

As I have a vintage internet plan (i.e. none), I most likely will not be able to electronically document daily wins and losses, but I think pencil and paper data will work great as I can take them into the field. And, probably not every win or loss will be explicitly expressed. You don't want to hear how I picked up the bag of apples from the bottom of the bag and they rolled all over my kitchen floor on a weekly basis or how I delight in 6 a.m. yoga every Wednesday. Those will be added to the tally, but most likely not included verbatim. But, I think it might be fun to add the juicy stuff. The out of the ordinary stuff. And the funny and ironic stuff.

Here We Go (in the tone of the beginning of track 2 of Joanne :) )...

WINS: 5

-free facial!
-starting this project

losses: 1

Let's WIN!

As I've contemplated the last year, I've gotten a little whiney about "the present." I lamented to one (or maybe more...) of my girlfriends: I need a win. A big win. A BIIIIIG WIN. A win that is so obvious and in your face that you cannot deny that that's exactly what is happening. A win that I wouldn't have to guess at. Not "Thank God I survived the day" kind of win. Not "I mustered the energy to prepare a can of soup instead of frozen pizza for dinner" kind of win. Not even "Look! A quarter in the parking lot!" kind of win. I was seeking a "this red 1966 Mustang convertible is all yours!" kind of win. Or a "own this gorgeous downtown condo for less than your rent!" kind of win. Or, maybe(?), "yup, you're 'the one', no doubts" kind of win.

And, of course, my thoughts led me to acknowledging that, indeed, I do have much to be thankful for. And I know this. I know this every single day, and I will never take it for granted. But, hot dang, sometimes you just need a really big WIN.

And then it hit me this past Monday when a good friend won $50 off of a tattoo in a drawing. I literally jumped up, screamed like a school girl(EEEEEE!!), and cried: "That's a WIN!!!" I was so stoked at this outcome, at this event that occurred that wasn't really mine at all, that I wondered if maybe I tweaked my perspective just a tad, each day might actually come out as a win if I added up all the little wins and tallied them against the losses. Cuz, let's face it: the losses are obvious and typically fairly large and/or frequent. And there will be days when the loss(es) just can't be conquered i.e. November 8, 2016, the day you find out you're dating a con man, the time(s) where you should have made a different choice, and probably all the days during your "sabbatical".

But, maybe, just maybe, I'm actually winning more than I'm losing. So, I need to take some data. I need to find out if this is actually true. Could it be that at the end of the day we actually win more often than not?