Ok, back with two weeks of data. I had a brief hiatus to be with my family for nearly a week and then it took about a week to get back into life routine. So, I'm data-less for 2 weeks, but to make up for it, here are the latest 2 weeks.

Sun: 3/19
Win: 3
Running guided tour, frisbee, thoughtful text from a friend
L: 0


Mon: 3/20
W: 1
L: 0

Tues: 3/21
W: 0
L: 0


Wed: 3/22
W: 0
L: 1
Social media...always keeping you on your toes

Thurs: 3/23
W: 2
L: 2
Social media...again?! I gotta do something about this...
Feeling of blame after conversation at work

Fri: 3/24
W: 2
Getting out for a run when feeling deflated
Lent concert
L: 1
Boo spring breaks when they aren't yours

Sat: 3/25
W: 0
L: 0

Sun: 3/26
W: 2
Chats with west and east coast friends
L: 1
Took a looooong while to get off the couch

Mon: 3/27
W: 2
3 days in a row of emotion code
...done.
L: 1
Contemplating feelings of weakness

Tues: 3/28
W: 3
Used my words (practice makes perfect, or improved at least!)
Walk with a friend
Good convo with a family
L: 0

Wed: 3/29
W: 3
Yoga inspired by me for grandma
Handling a season/listening
Overcome bias for productivity
L: 0

Thurs: 3/30
W: 1
L: 0


Fri: 3/31
W: 0
L: 0

Sat: 4/1
W: 0
L: 1
Yoga: atypical that this lands here, but the style didn't work for me today

Sun: 4/2
W: 3
STILL thinking about that pizza at DayBlock!
Church with a friend, so nice to have share the experience
It had been a long time, too long, since I've danced around my living room like nobody's business. Courtesy of Brothers Osborne.
L: 0

Two week record: 9-2-4

Data Week 1

Week one of data-taking has come to a close, and finally able to write about it. Trying to stretch that 4% of data left over another week. The numbers are as follows:

Sunday:
WINS:4
losses:2

Monday:
WINS:5
losses:0
-didn't lose it when someone moved my food.
-Tx breakthrough--oof.
-came home to chocolate chips in the freezer!!

Tuesday:
WINS:1
losses:0

Wednesday:
WINS:2
losses:0

Friday:
WINS:2
-a friend has great career news!!--"Things are starting to feel like they are falling into place!"
-first sculpt class was a success!--definitely needed an athletic WIN
losses:0

Saturday:
WINS:1
-LLR unicorn in my size!
losses:1

Season record:7-0-1

Upon the conclusion of this week, some thoughts and clarifications:
WINS or losses are not necessarily good things or bad things that occur. The perception of WIN or loss is more based on expectation. For example: you go to a coffee shop, order the usual, get your usual, sit down, sip your usual, it tastes good, you feel happy and caffeinated, get your work done, and go home. Even though the coffee was good and you were productive, not a WIN (and not really a loss either). The expectation was exactly how it played out. And I'd even go further to say even if your coffee was ho-hum, you got distracted creeping on you-know-who's Instagram, and got nothing done, still probably not a loss. That's just life. But, you spill said drink that you spent your last $5 on on your favorite white pants which you had to wear in March cuz you haven't done laundry in three weeks and had to high-tail it to the ER to get your burns checked out...probably a loss. Somebody behind you not only pays for that coffee, but it is the best vanilla, caramel, milk chocolate soy latte with double espresso you've ever laid your tongue on...WIN.

I'm also surprised to learn this week that I can have a record day WIN-wise and still feel unfulfilled or down or disappointed or whatever else. And, (and this is good news), losses can outweigh the wins, but your day be fabulous. (How can this be??!!--more data must be recorded).

Data Day 2

WINS:6.5
-Massage table purchased for a great deal! (Let the energy work begin!)
-Body work on third "client" complete
-0.5: after a lot of work, de-escalating my reaction to the bank being closed and my being late (big smell breath in...)

losses: 3.5
-My reaction to arriving 6 minutes late after my reaction to the bank being closed (gah! Profanity (ies)!)
-Spending a loooooong time picking out the perfect frame for a drawing a got in NYC (in September) and returning home to find it was the wrong size (visual-spatial skills need a boost).


Season total: 2-0

Let's get started: Data day 1

As I have a vintage internet plan (i.e. none), I most likely will not be able to electronically document daily wins and losses, but I think pencil and paper data will work great as I can take them into the field. And, probably not every win or loss will be explicitly expressed. You don't want to hear how I picked up the bag of apples from the bottom of the bag and they rolled all over my kitchen floor on a weekly basis or how I delight in 6 a.m. yoga every Wednesday. Those will be added to the tally, but most likely not included verbatim. But, I think it might be fun to add the juicy stuff. The out of the ordinary stuff. And the funny and ironic stuff.

Here We Go (in the tone of the beginning of track 2 of Joanne :) )...

WINS: 5

-free facial!
-starting this project

losses: 1

Let's WIN!

As I've contemplated the last year, I've gotten a little whiney about "the present." I lamented to one (or maybe more...) of my girlfriends: I need a win. A big win. A BIIIIIG WIN. A win that is so obvious and in your face that you cannot deny that that's exactly what is happening. A win that I wouldn't have to guess at. Not "Thank God I survived the day" kind of win. Not "I mustered the energy to prepare a can of soup instead of frozen pizza for dinner" kind of win. Not even "Look! A quarter in the parking lot!" kind of win. I was seeking a "this red 1966 Mustang convertible is all yours!" kind of win. Or a "own this gorgeous downtown condo for less than your rent!" kind of win. Or, maybe(?), "yup, you're 'the one', no doubts" kind of win.

And, of course, my thoughts led me to acknowledging that, indeed, I do have much to be thankful for. And I know this. I know this every single day, and I will never take it for granted. But, hot dang, sometimes you just need a really big WIN.

And then it hit me this past Monday when a good friend won $50 off of a tattoo in a drawing. I literally jumped up, screamed like a school girl(EEEEEE!!), and cried: "That's a WIN!!!" I was so stoked at this outcome, at this event that occurred that wasn't really mine at all, that I wondered if maybe I tweaked my perspective just a tad, each day might actually come out as a win if I added up all the little wins and tallied them against the losses. Cuz, let's face it: the losses are obvious and typically fairly large and/or frequent. And there will be days when the loss(es) just can't be conquered i.e. November 8, 2016, the day you find out you're dating a con man, the time(s) where you should have made a different choice, and probably all the days during your "sabbatical".

But, maybe, just maybe, I'm actually winning more than I'm losing. So, I need to take some data. I need to find out if this is actually true. Could it be that at the end of the day we actually win more often than not?